And so I spoke too soon. Alas, AIDAN and I were not meant to be. He broke up with me Friday night because he felt “his heart just wasn’t in it” and that it wouldn’t be fair to me to be with someone who wasn’t giving 100%. There was nothing I did or said to cause this and there’s no other girl in the picture. It’s cliché but it wasn’t me, it was him. It doesn’t make it hurt any less that I gave him my heart and he gave it back to me. The only consolation is that the breakup happened sooner than later. It was only a month and some weeks of my life that I spent in honeymoon bliss, only to be blindsided by the uncomfortable conversation he knew he had to have with me.
I gave myself that night and the next day to cry and process it all. I guess as it turns out, we really weren’t meant to be. He had some quirks that I chose to overlook at the time but now I see them with eyes wide open. For example, he only wore white t-shirts and jeans. Everyday. That was his wardrobe. And he needed a haircut - badly. He tried to cover up his (non) style by always wearing a hat. As one of my brothers put it, “He looks like he works at Jiffy Lube.” And we never had sex. Not once. Part of that was on my end, but then it got to the point where I was ready and he never was.
All my besties (GASTRIC BP, THE COLD, MY TWIN) have been amazing. The comforting, motivating texts have really helped me in moving on. And speaking of moving on, I scored myself an amazing new job!! I start next Monday and it’s in an area I’m very passionate about - Teen Pregnancy. I’ll be working with pregnant and/or parenting teens and the Department of Children and Family Services. I’m super stoked to get this opportunity and I think I’m gonna really love it. People have even told me I’ll probably end up meeting someone at this new job. We shall see I guess.
So here I am, 31, newly single, and excited to start this new chapter in my life. I’ve got a great job to look forward to, a fabulous family who would do ANYTHING for me, and phenomenal friends who keep me laughing and grounded on the daily. Next on the list of things to do is start saving up the bucks so I can move out and get myself some sweet digs. If I meet someone, then that’s great - but it reminds me of a quote by Jen Schefft and it’s always stayed with me - “A man should be the icing on the cake, not the cake itself.” Besides, I am one bitchin’ baker.