Maybe it was the text messages I found in his phone? Maybe it was the day I didn’t hear from him because he “left his phone in the car”? Maybe it was the stories he told me that had one too many loopholes? Whatever it was, it’s pushed me to the limit and I can no longer continue dating the STALLION. I cannot trust him and I don’t know if I ever will and you just can’t have a relationship without trust.
A few weeks ago, he let me borrow his phone and I went through his texts (like any normal girlfriend would do) and I found some messages between him and his baby mama that sounded a little too friendly considering he told me that they hate each other. I also found some messages from a girl that when I confronted him about, he said he had met only once or twice through a friend and she had become obsessed with him. At the time, I believed him though it did hurt to see them. But I blissfully moved on and just kept those things in the back of my mind. Well now those things have come to surface since Monday when I didn’t hear from him ALL DAY. Now you may be thinking, “So what, psycho?” But let me tell you that this kid used to call me everyday on my way to work and we’d text/call about 20 times a day. To all of a sudden, not hear from him, it makes ya wonder… His alibi answer was that he had gone to the city with a friend and left his phone in the car while they rode the train around all day. To add insult to injury, he told me that when he got back to his phone (around 3pm), he had 29 missed calls and had to return them all. Note: He did NOT return the 10 phone calls and 5 texts from me.
The last few days have been very strange in that we’ve been fighting/not speaking and when we do speak, he’s in his Jekyll and Hyde mode. This is where he is totally sweet and awesome one minute and then a complete douchelord the next. As of right now, he is being a douchelord. What prompted my sudden change of heart? Well I went out to dinner with MY TWIN and GASTRIC BP last night and I felt like I was on an episode of “Intervention”. I know it came from a place of love, but they pretty much told me that the STALLION is a loser and that I deserve wayyyyy better. They opened my eyes to the things I always knew but didn’t want to admit. Then at work today, the 2 women I work with and I spent our lunch hour going over the evidence that the STALLION is clearly cheating on me. It sucks and I am fighting back tears but I refuse to cry. Instead, I am chain smoking. And checking my phone every five minutes to see if he texted me. Note: He has not.
One of the biggest things about my relationship with the STALLION was that my parents did not approve. They called him a loser from the beginning and refused to meet him. My dad forbid him from sleeping over at the house and they never asked me anything about him or how things were going with us. They knew he was bad news all along; imagine that – parents actually knowing what’s best. My parents have NEVER had this reaction to a guy I dated before and to be honest, it freaked me out. I am extremely close to my family and not having their approval, well that just didn’t sit well with me. So there’s another reason to ditch this dude.
Today I’ve decided to surprise him and show up at his house unannounced. Maybe I’ll catch him in the act or maybe I won’t find anything. Either way, I’m picking up my stuff from his place and putting an end to this madness. Wish me luck…