So in true “Hot Mess” form, my playful love affair with ODB was apparently all in my head. He decided to abruptly stop texting with me and when I tried to start it up again, I was pretty much shut down. Asshole. (Him, not me.) So fuck him, on to the next one!
And that would be MY TWIN – lots of texting action there. He has since broken up with his girlfriend and moved out of their shared apartment. He’s asked me to hang out a few times but with my asinine work schedule, it’s pretty difficult to have a social life. We’ve spoken on the phone a few times and he made a really sweet gesture too. I can already tell that older guys are different from my usual young bucks by leaps and bounds. For example, since he’s newly single he has sent me messages like this: “…I don’t wanna jump from one relationship to another. You just make me smile, that’s all I want right now” and “Let’s just promise not to mess with each other. I think we can both agree that we’re a little fragile right now.” I mean, come on, who says that?!?! None of the guys I interact with, that’s for damn sure. So we’ll see what happens there. I can honestly say (for the first time in my life) that I don’t want to be in a relationship at the moment. I just wanna “do me” right now.
And then there’s MIU. So we FINALLY hung out the other night and years worth of pent-up sexual tension finally came to a head. Although he’s way younger than me, he’s very mature for his age. The way he thinks, his outlook on life, his past experiences… he truly is a diamond in the rough, but a little tortured at the same time. I worry for him. He’s making a huge life change in 2 weeks and though I’m super sad because we just started hanging out, I really want him to be happy and if this is what he needs to do in order to be happy, then I’ll be his biggest cheerleader. What can I say, it's never easy. I find someone I connect with, only to find out due to circumstances beyond my control, a future together looks bleak. But in the meantime, I wanna see his sexy ass as much as possible before he leaves. So far in my attempts to do so, I’ve been unsuccessful. Womp. But I can’t blame the guy for wanting to go to bed early since I kept him up super late the night before. Although I’m not gonna lie, while I was at work after only getting a few hours of sleep, I was thinking, “Just take a nap pussy, I won’t be over til midnight anyway!” But I said it in a much nicer way of course; after all, I am a lady.